a deck of cards and a pack of liesa new revelation, and im thinking why was i so stupid. and this got me thinking. was everything from the start just a lie? this was never a totally honest, open and clean affair. all your "wise words" and "good advice" which made you seem such a decent guy totally contradicts. why lie? to put it crudely, were you just a fucked up slimeball all this while?
i just hate this feeling of shock and disbelief and maybe im in a semi state of denial. everything you said you were turned out to be false, and the worst part is you never came clean with me did you?
i guess im overreacting, i never knew i'd be this affected. it's hard to trust somebody, but when you do and that person disappoints, the feeling just crushes you.
oh well, im only friggin 17 so this is trivial. so trivial in fact i shouldnt even be typing about it. but i just wish all the anger disappeared. an outlet where emotions are brought to a standstill. i wont act tough and say this hasnt affected me at all cos it definitely has. and i wont deny the fact that it was my fault too. but i just wished things could have ended peacefully.